When I started focusing more seriously on my work, I think I imagined it would be more contained than it actually is.
That most of my time would be spent making, and everything else would naturally fall into place around it.
But creating is only one part of it.
There are all these other pieces that exist alongside the work. Photographing it, listing it, writing about it, deciding where it goes, how it’s shared, when it’s ready. Trying to stay consistent without forcing something that isn’t there. Trying to be present with the work while also thinking a few steps ahead.
It’s not something I fully understood at first.
There’s a different kind of pressure that comes with being the one holding all of it.
Not just making the work, but directing it. Deciding what matters, what gets finished, what gets shared, what gets left alone for a while. Some days that feels clear. Other days it feels less defined, like I’m figuring it out as I move through it.
And I think that’s part of it too.
I’ve also started to notice how much of this happens in the background.
There are stretches that don’t look like progress from the outside. Time spent organizing, revisiting older pieces, preparing work to be sealed or released. It doesn’t always translate into something visible right away, but it still moves things forward in a quieter way.
It’s easy to overlook that kind of movement if you’re expecting everything to feel immediate.
At the same time, I see other artists building, sharing, growing in their own ways.
It’s inspiring to witness, even if it sometimes makes me pause and look at what I’m doing a little more closely. Not in a way that pulls me off track, but enough to notice that there isn’t just one way for this to unfold.
I think I’m still learning how to hold both sides of it.
The part that feels natural and intuitive, and the part that asks for structure and consistency. Letting them exist together without one taking over the other.
For now, I’m continuing to show up for the work itself.
And trusting that everything around it will keep taking shape in its own time.
